Normally I don't post about my frustrations or mental chaos or general madness that is my brain, but bare with me as I rant today.
So I have been having trouble sleeping the past few nights, and even though I sleep a full 8 hours, I am tired and grumpy. I have blamed everything from my bed to the pillow, to my son and my husband, etc., but the real problem was my frustration with how I manage my day (which I was too proud to admit). And last night I woke up at midnight with a pounding headache and just started crying about all the things that I needed to do and cannot do because I am just so busy doing other things. My main rants: "I need time to create more products for my business; I need time to find help to make some of these products; I need time to sell what I am making; I need time to talk about what I am making; I need time to listen to customers...and on and on and on." My husband is often at the receiving end of this, but he stayed calm (bless his heart) and gave me a tablet to knock me out. And this morning, I find this blog post in my inbox, which somewhat addressed my predicament. Its from Seth Godin's blog and I am quoting it here:
So there it is...Just do my work! Now of course I know that....but because I don't see immediate results, I can be easily frustrated (and hence, easily distracted). I am sure that I am not the only one in this boat. There are lots of people, including some of my closest friends, who are trying to make their own path, and who are facing this problem too. But I have to remind myself that instead of the blame game, I need to just suck it up and keep going..a little bit everyday. It is not going to be easy, but I am going to print this blog post and keep it taped up on my wall to remind myself this every time I feel overwhelmed and have a meltdown.
Ok, I am done. Now back to work :)